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PATRICK CALLAHAN • PIPER HALLIWELL • CHARMED
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[05 Feb 2012|01:29pm] |
Have you ever felt like you should be doing more with your life? Because I sure as hell do. All I seem to do lately is run around like a chicken with my head cut off. Grad school, office, home, run around with the little brother. It's like half the time I forget to just sit back and take a breathe.
It's already February. When did that happen? Like. Seriously. When? Time goes by so fast. My brother already has three girls lined up for his Valentine's Day dance. Sometimes I miss high school. When that, that, was The Most Important Thing in my life. Not rent, not this other life that this head-occupant flashes back on, not tuition. All of it.
I wish there were some kind of time machine, you know? I don't know. Maybe I should just. Whatever, enough ranting. I have dishes to wash. :-/
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| one. not quite charmed |
[18 Dec 2011|02:16pm] |
Sometimes when I think I finally have a handle on things, something new comes along and pulls the rug right from under me. As much as I love my little brother, maybe I should've just let him go with Jack. Maybe he wouldn't look so sad all of the time. I try to stay positive and remember that it's the holidays and that's hard on everyone, especially him, but it doesn't mean I don't worry any less.
Doesn't help being a low-level grunt at work, either. I keep waiting for the chance to prove myself, but the newspaper biz is not what I thought it was. When my professor said it might be a while before we actually got any real work, I thought he was exaggerating. So wasn't. Still, there are some great people around, and I get thrown some side jobs for extra cash, so I should probably be happy about that, right? Right.
I keep having these nightmares. They feel so real. I can't remember most of them, but every time I wake up it's like I've been fighting for my life, and I'm exhausted. If I could afford a therapist, I'd go see one. They'd probably tell me it's my subconscious dealing with the demons plaguing my mind and I'm manifesting them in my sleep. Well, fuck you subconscious, I want a decent night's sleep.
I keep trying to improve the culinary skills I lack. Mom and dad used to do it up big: turkey, stuffing, egg nog. It was an event. I can barely make toast. Probably wouldn't matter, though. No matter what, I wouldn't be my parents, and I think it'd just remind my brother of what we've lost. How do people do it? Because I don't think I'm doing it right.
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